Last year was an intense year for so many and we lost several bright lights to suicide. I've faced that darkness and I know how it feels when you think there is no hope at all. But please know that it is never too late, things can always change. Even if you feel trapped there can always be change, don't give up before you've ever even really lived. High school is not your whole life, just a tiny horrible portion, it will end eventually and you can go on. You don't have to do everything when you're young-- you can go back to school when you're older, you can still transition when you're older, being older is no barrier to doing what you want with your life (if anything you get more options the older you are to do exactly what you please, I know a woman over 50 who dyes her hair purple and I am designing a tattoo to commemorate her beating cancer)
We are just leaving the darkest time of the year but it can be hard to see that things are getting slowly brighter a little bit at a time. The new year can be a time of new beginnings or even a fresh start on something you've always meant to work more on. I'm going to work more on my comics, both the more spontaneous Weird Shorts and some of the longer story ones. I've been writing ideas down like crazy, they've been coming in a great flood all of the sudden so I am trying to storyboard out all of my ideas before they evaporate.
I'm going to try harder to be both more spontaneous and more dedicated to actually seeing things through this year.
I'm going to actually put up my own website (but I'll continue to post stuff here).
I'm going to stop being so shy and actually go talk to people even if it scares me.
I'm going to be more mindful.
ps- if anyone reading this is ever feeling that low please email or message me, I'm a good listener<3